So, thinking about the future is always worrisome, thanks to the best efforts of recent generations in ruining the planet. None of the (half-hearted tbh) attempts so far have made a dint in anything. But who's to say a tyrant wouldn't try. Let it be known that one such may come to conquer the world and force us to make good.
Currently Brainstorming: A cloudy-p2p-GUI thing, that has a shared canvas desktop thing…Pics coming.
Thinking about: Wringing a story, or many, with awesome things such as: * future where they ‘hack into’ the universes controlling mechanisms. * post apocalypse (possibly) where most of the world is reverted to dark-ish ages but with all the current buildings still around. * matrix like simulation thing. * etc…
also maybe a app for collaborative story authoring/telling/reading with automatic semantic info-collection on characters/places/etc…
and there is still my xcms things to do… but exmans, and the internet, and lack of concentration, etc…. ahh well
Oh FFS GAHHH, I hate my mental state. I have 0 or less short term memory, which makes it totally impossible for me to write anything. I have had so many ideas that I think ‘wow thats awesome’, but by the time I have been in a position to share/develop them I have forgotten them… and its seriously getting on my nerves.
And then comes the second problem: I have absolutely no concentration. I just sat down to blog about a though I had earlier about my feelings towards the opposite sex and relationships and that crap. I really had a gem of an idea. But now it comes down to it, I cant remember it, and what I can remember I cant fucking compose into sensible words.
I actually imagined an awesome representation of what I wish to beable to do: A picture of someone with their brain in their hands, mashing it into the keyboard. At the moment I feel like a guy looking at the world from behind a screen, not being able to compose sense is my downfall.
Why am I attracted to the opposite sex? I dont want to be… its a completely pointless venture for me. I would rather just have friends that friends that I am attracted to…. grrrrr
Maybe I am going over the top by far…. but it feels like this maybe the 3rd distinct part of my relationship with the internet.
First there was slownet, the5thrace, spacis, carolynf and sifichronicals. lots of stuff transpired. I got banned from someplaces and others disapeard.
Second came Banning, SC4Devotions and SC4E. I rebuilt my place on the internet after the devistating end of the first part. I expanded into Dragonmount, XKCD and other places for a short while. This proved unsustainable and thus came to an end this chrismas. My dedication to the wiki stopped. I got bored of an activity that I had given 10000 posts of my internet too, and countless hours of time. I stopped wanting to talk to my friends that I banned with. The money I spent on subscribing to these places was wasted, my time spent as a sub could not stop me from becoming, as a friend put it, bored. TeenLUG/TeenLinux and #leesykate were fun, had nice time with them.
Now I am still visiting SC4D and intermitently PS3F. But I have moved on, to Twitter and blogging.
more coming…..
I realised some stuff this week:
That if something doesnt work the way it should, it isnt what you want: like if your car doesnt start every time you try, it isnt correct there is no room for failure, why have people come to accept it as the norm? Why, when it is so easy to swap, do people continue to use windows? why do companies/schools/governments still constrain themselves to things they have to buy? Why waste their “precious” rmoney on something that doesnt work when there are alternatives that are free and open.
That I dont particularly like the real world: I would far rather have no body, it is just a useless lump, completely useless to me who only wants to think, to learn and to generally occupy his own mind. I cant particularly socialise in the real world and its not even a nice place to live really. It looks nice, but I dont care for looks. It fills my senses, but senses are just perception anyway, they are not important to me.
That money is the root of all evil: Why do we live in a world where even things that we need to live are hard to get without a made up entity such as cost. Why, in this “modern” world do we need to trade at all. Why limit our creativity and our understanding by enforcing price on it? We fight over it, we kill others who have it, we die because others dont have it. People die because we dont want to spend it on feeding them. The majority of us dont even own our own houses. Companies/people sue others for the sake of it. In some places, you cant even be treated at a hospital without paying. That is saying, you cant actually live without money. If you dont have money, you can die.
That many laws are obsolete: Copyright for one, is completely contradictory to helping the human race survive and prosper. If you theive something, it is either because you cant afford it or it brings you proffit. The outlaw of creating drugs causes people to do it where there is no protection for the environment, and the workers end up being people that cant survive without the eligal trade.
that politics is useless: they argue, they “lie” and they stop most things from happening. They “rule” where rule is only needed in a world with money.
That I dont fear death: What is there to fear about it? What, in this cruel, heartles world of money, corruption and war, is there to want to stay alive for?
</rant> thats as far as my brain can cope with lasting strings of thought
Another random outburst of the box.
yeah, i was walking past a jewlers shop, and saw to women perusing.. and i thought:
hmmm, I wonder what there reaction would be if i walked in and said, “Choose something you want, anything. Make it something you would like for yourselves. Anything at all. I will buy it for you. NO strings attached.
thats about it. my nice side coming out, just thought i better share it with you :P.
