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YAY!

Yay for impossible tasks. And yet nothing is impossible. Everything can be done, and has been or will be or even is being done. Is it all about how? Probably more likely to be all about anything you want it to be.

Maybe this is all a lazy view, to stop myself from needing to decide on something to believe. I just don't know. But what I do know is that I don't mind not knowing, since it affects my life so little, at the moment.

I wish to be a good person and yet I fear that it is impossible, which only proves that I do not truly believe that anything and everything is possible. Or maybe I do believe and do think I could be a good person, but think it wouldn't be worth the effort since nobody would appreciate it, or at least not enough for my liking. Which makes me selfish, wishing to be appreciated for things that should be done regardless.

Maybe I just like lying to myself, hating myself, wanting to be better but not wanting to put effort in. How despicable of me.

Is this even relevant discussion? unfortunately I don't even know if what I said above is even true. Please forgive me, again.

Stuff I've been up to.

Yeah, one of these posts.

Well I read Brandon Sanderson's Warbreaker yesterday, and really enjoyed it (well of course, I read it in one day. lol). He has the knack of drawing you in and not letting you put the book down, quite amazing. I also watched Exit Through The Gift Shop - the Banksy film, and Only Yesterday - another Studio Ghibli film, over the weekend. I should probably list what I got for Christmas:

• The Cat Returns (my favourite Studio Ghibli film), Grave of the Fireflies, Spirited Away, Only Yesterday, and Tales from Earthsea.
• Exit Through The Gift Shop,
• Brandon's Warbreaker and The Way of Kings,
• Dan Simmons' Illium-Olympos,
• a new copy of Tad Williams' War of the Flowers,
• t-shirts: '[pacman]//omnomnom' ,  'meh', 'keep out of direct sunlight', and 'I love vegetarians//more meat for me'
• a couple of jumpers and some trousers, and socks and underwear.

I got a book, t-shirt (the 'meh' one) and demotivation calendar off Meesha, and about £200 from relatives. Other than that I spent the weekend with my mothers family, and spoke at length (both Skype and gTalk) with Meesha. Twas a rather magical Christmas all in all. Oh, and we ate (and are still eating) plenty :D

Other stuff I've been upto? Well I've been at uni pretty solidly, since I'm really trying to apply myself this year to salvage as good a degree as possible. I've been working one day a week since the start of term (and worked the start of last week too), and enjoyed that, finishing up the Sonar, doing some C# and messing with Android etc. Now I'm on holiday I've going to keep the maths we did last term fresh for my exams, which means practising/revising, and also I have to write a File System for my Operating Systems course. 

If you're interested...

...me and my girlfriend have started a joint blog, so if you dont mind being sopped out and would like to learn/hear about us and what we're upto etc. head over here. 

So yeah

I've moved to Posterous....will be deleting tumblr and moving references and things over here...WATCH OUT! :o

Cortex

http://cortexapp.com/

cool, dont know if I’ll end up using it though…